a contemplation of our walk in life

Humans who don't know beauty..
who don't bother looking for inner peace and bother trying to make a sense of this world;
Humans who can't make sense of things; don't know the DEEPER meaning of things at all...

This is all competition is creating. Such meaningless automatons whose only purpose is to do well in a competition and get to their destination.

It's as if those losers are high-speed, straight-line, get-there-or-nothing travellers on the road of life. They never bother to look at the flowers on the road, "wander" and "stroll" through life, enjoying every part of it, the beauty, the sense, the meaning of it all; perhaps having a stop and taking in their surroundings; perhaps deviating from the main path at times, like a butterfly, to look at those things that satisfy one's soul..

Thinking of all these things and more, it makes me wonder which is more worth it, more meaningful, more truthful. Zooming in a high-speed chase through life, or enjoying every bit of it while you can? In the end, what is there? Life is a zero-sum game.. we start from nothing, and we end at nothing.. or do we? I don't think winning a competition where you co-ordinate every part of you for that purpose, ruthlessly ruling out anything that isn't important to that purpose, working like a perfect robot to achieve that purpose... I just don't think that's a way to live life. It's so shameful.. worthless.. in the end even if you do achieve whatever you were aiming for, I think you will just feel empty, broken, saying, "Is this it? Is this what I have spent so much of my time and energy into, dedicated my whole life to, and this is it?".. I believe this will be such a common ending to those high-speed travellers.

On the other hand, there are those "wanderers" through life... sure they won't feel the meaninglessness in the sense that the high-speed travellers feel at the end of their journey. For they had no aim in the first place; and they try to find meaning within life.. not from its destination, but in the process of getting there.. wherever life takes us. Personally I desire this sort of lifestyle a whole lot more. It is such a refreshing view of life.

We are all travellers. There's no doubt about that. How you live, it matters a lot. We live in such a macroscopic world, and it is so stuffed full of microcosm that sometimes you can' t comprehend it all..

Human behaviour is so interesting and predictable. At most times one can almost vouch that humans will act in the logical, and the most profitable way (to them) as possible. This starts getting a bit complicated once deception comes into the play - it is still logical behaviour, yet has the veneer of anti-logic - instead of travelling in the shortest path possible, they travel on a longer path, perhaps in an order to fool others. A very simple and elementary example of "deception" and "complexity" in human behaviour is of "taking one step backwards in order to advance two steps forward." If we look at taking a step backward in itself, it may seem like an illogical behaviour, assuming everyone is aiming to go forwards. Yet if taking a step backwards is taken under context - if it is the only way to advance forwards - then it all starts making sense, our longing for a logical explanation will be satisfied.

I believe this is what happens in the wider world, but in a far, far, far more complex sense... such complexity can go infinitely deep.

I marvel at the amount of logical thinking present in human civlizations. On the outside, this may be covered by the usual veneer of normality, a thick cloud of 'emotions' (which in itself, I believe, is quite logical - at times it may seem illogical, however I believe this is due to the 'complexity' logic can acquire as I explained above, and the slight differences in the logical mechanisms of everyone, which could have been influenced purely by their nature, education, culture, surroundings, etc) and an 'expectance' one has about one's environment. Yet if one develops a different attitude - that of curiosity, and wonder, at one's environment, then one starts noticing how logical us human beings really are. (though at many times other people may hardly meet one's expectations in terms of 'logic')

So much logical thinking is involved from the smallest of things to the largest... it's so amazing... if we allow 'logic' and 'order' to be synonymous, then wow.. gee... the wonder of this world really strikes you, as one not only finds that they're present in human activity but that it is all around us, in nature itself, in everything...

I don't want to go back to anthropologic principles or anything. They take the beauty, the sense of wonder out of it all. I mean, we see the world around us in the way it is because we were born in such a world. What kind of a dull explanation is that?